Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Two weeks ago I resigned from the job I have done for nearly 6 years. Today is my last day of work. At the end of the day I'll turn in my computer, ipod, name tags, hair nets, keys, and the kitchen sink.
Six years ago, when I left the classroom, I was desperate to get out and find a change of scene - a change of pace. I LOVED teaching history. I LOVED the kids that were my students. I just couldn't do it anymore. The job felt too hard and stifling and like it was choking me. I did it for almost 6 years and was ready to move on.
I left the high school in a flurry and found what I thought at the time was a great job. To commemorate the event, because the timing just worked out that way, Ross and I went to Italy. Oh, Florence. You served my brain well.
Fast forward another 6 years. I really LIKED my job. I really LIKED the teachers that I got to work with in the world of online learning. LIKE does not however, a great job make. When I was walking away from staff meetings with stomach aches...or in tears (how pathetic does that make me, right?), or dwelt on a snarky e-mail for too many days I realized it was time to suck it up and vacate the premises.
That's what I've done and I've done it without a net. Right now, there is no job to fall back on, no career to advance no Italy to visit.
There is just me.
The best me that I can be. Holding my head up high. Knowing that I did a great job. Knowing that right now, where I'm supposed to be is at home, with my kids, being their mom, and fixing myself - becoming a better me with new goals and experiences on the horizon. Taking deep breaths and leaps of faith. It's scary - but a very exciting time. A new frontier in the life of Annie.
I had a teacher send me an e-mail and tell me that she hoped that I resigned for something bigger and better.
I told her that right now, I'm running away! But, in the next few months the something bigger and better will come.