I can't stay

The emotion it was, electric
And the stars, they all aligned
I knew I had to make my, decision
But I never made the time
No, I never made the time

In the dark, for a while now
I can't stay, so far
I can't stay, much longer
Riding my decision home

Exoneration lost his, eraser
But my forgiver found the sun
And there are twisted days that I take comfort
Cause I'm not the only one
No, I'm not the only one

In the dark, for a while now
I can't stay, very far
I can't stay, much longer
Riding my decision home

There is a majesty at my doorstep
There is a little boy in her arms
Now we'll parade around without game plans
Obligations, or alarm

In the dark, for a while now
I can't stay, very far
I can't stay, much longer
Riding my decision home

In the dark, for a while now
I can't stay, so far
I can't stay, much longer
Riding my decision home
In the dark

**

Every once in a while a song finds me.  Regardless of it's intended meaning, it hits my life and my meaning like a ton of bricks.  This week has had highs and lows.  Expectations and disappointment and severe exasperation.  Have you ever wanted to punch someones lights out and curl up in a ball and cry at the same time?   Or, just want to twirl and dance and sing with whisks as your microphones the whole night through with the little boys that you love (and sometimes wish their dad would join in the fun)?

That's where I'm at.  The land of extremes.

I think that this song is about transition.  Transition and change are good things.  This song is a good thing.  It's been played out loud (not counting all the times it's been sung in my head), maybe almost 100 times this week.  Seriously.

One day it was the only thing we listened to.  Thank you ipod for the magic repeat button.

When your little boys don't tell you to find a new song - they either "get it", or the song is speaking to them, too.

Have a good weekend.

Go and find yourself a song.