Tuesday, May 22, 2012
2:00 in the am
Nearly every single night, I wake up at 2:00 am. It used to be 4:00 am, but things change.
Usually, it's to go to the bathroom and then head back to bed. Occasionally, it's for a drink. Sometimes, it's because I've got low blood sugar and need something to eat. Every once in a while it's because of a charlie horse in my leg or a twitchy back muscle, or a swift kick to the kidneys.
Regardless, If I'm lucky, the wake-up call lasts about 40 minutes and I'm back to sleep, waiting for 6:30 when I have to get up for real. If I'm not lucky, it's a rough night, with at least 4 hours awake. I watch movies on the computer, catch up on TV shows and read blogs. I pace the house, peek in on my kids, and listen to my husband snore - him upstairs and me down.
These days though, I rarely get frustrated...or at least as frustrated as I used to. Maybe it's because I'm lucky to be alive and have a quiet house to wander and a safe neighborhood to live in. Maybe its because I know that in a few months, I'll be up anyway so it isn't a big deal.
Maybe it's just because I'm getting older and insomnia is just something that life throws at me and I'm learning to deal with it.
Either way, I'm going back to bed to try it again. Wish me luck. I've only been up 29 minutes.